Circle of Trust

For my COT, I want to start with this quote “Fear is the idleness of will”
When we give in to our fears, we feel stuck and unable to take action. I know. I had no
self confidence for years. I was afraid to try new things. Take chances. It affected all areas of my life. I have reflected on the last area of my life over the last several months that still has not been accelerating like the other areas which is my professional life. I have seen
a pattern over my career. A bunch of 2.5-3 year jobs and there have been several where
they have either laid off or reduced the pay/hours at the end to basically force you to leave.
The common denominator between all of the jobs has been me. I could really see the
problem after my transformation over the last two years and the person I was when I started
my current position to who I am now. I started my current job back in Feb 2019 as that
person who didn’t have the confidence in his abilities, the person who still heard the voice
of his first ex wife saying “Who could ever love you?” or the bullies beating the shit out of
the chubby kid that I was or the previous work situations where I had lacked the confidence
to stand up for myself when things go wrong and would allow myself to be thrown under
the bus afraid to stand up.
My F3 journey has helped me to gain my self confidence and I am doing things that I never
would have done or haven’t done in years. I finally decided to obtain my personal trainer
certification and even have my first job as a trainer just accepting a part time team/group
trainer position at the PARC center the other day. I have chosen to stop listening to that
fear that has been holding me back for years. I had my 3rd round interview for a senior
engineer manager remote position yesterday which again I would not have had the
confidence to even apply for two years ago. I sat in a room yesterday for several hours of
meetings addressing different groups of the engineering staff fielding questions and leading
discussions and sharing my opinion in all areas ranging from managerial style to my ways
that I streamline the permitting process on my projects. I even talked about how a good
leader has to be training their replacement and the idea of leaving right that we discuss in
Qsource. I know. Goose bumps moment. I have had a lot of great discussions with my
Qsource buddies such as Dilly Dilly, Den Mother, Gopher, Quattro, Happy Camper and
Boston Butt to name a few since I started attending it in January 2021. The person I was
back in 2019, Tom the saddest sad clown bitch would never have even applied for this
position. If I get the position, great. But I have learned and realized that that it won’t
define me. Who I am goes way deeper and comes from within me. I like and respect that
person. He doesn’t give up. He has so much to give the world. He is a Badass. He is
Foundation.
My challenge to you is to think of something that you have thought about doing but have
held back on trying because of fear. Make a plan and do it. Conquer those fears. I feel so
much satisfaction as I have done two things that I was afraid of for so long. You are so
awesome and can accomplish anything you put your mind to.
Aye?
F3 is not a religious organization but we will end in a prayer. You’re welcome to join or
take a minute to connect with your sky Q. Are there an intentions we can acknowledge?